me

Today I feel Stronger.
Wiser.
and more Brave.

I feel like I'm more in control of my feelings
than I have been in a while.
Not than I've ever been. =)

But still.

It feels good.

Wow...

It's a day for multiple posts!

You know how there are just those rare, few, extraordinary people who enter your life and you can't imagine that they weren't always there??? Thank heaven for those rare gems. You know who you are... =)

Anyway, the most dazzling of those gems reminded me of a little Dr. Seuss tidbit she's shared with me before. I nearly lost my mind trying to remember it. And googlelicious!!! Here it is:

"Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind."

-Dr. Seuss

thanks, doll...

This is today's quote from ThinkExist. I have to post it into my blog so it won't go away when tomorrow's quote arrives!!!

"I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined,
and that we can do nothing to change it,
look before they cross the road."

-Stephen Hawking

Stop the world

and let me off...

Isn't it crazy how sometimes life just feels like an out-of-control merry-go-round??? {insert insane circus clown music here to get an idea of what I'm feeling}

Day three at the new job went well. I spent the entire day sitting with the most senior rep. Mind you, she may very well be the youngest, but she's been at the job for 8 years ("7 years too long", she says!). She's definitely got it together with the ins and outs of the job. And she's quite enjoyable. She laughed with me when I made my first attempts to enter an order into the system. And made me feel quite welcomed and comfortable all day. She's the first to admit that she's not an expert trainer. But I tend to learn a lot just from observing an expert at work. But... I learned this afternoon that the person who was leaving, the person I'm supposed to be replacing, has decided to accept the company's counter-offer and is continuing with her employment there. Which means that a temp is going to be dropped. Now, you'd figure that it would be me, since I've only been training for 3 days. The other two temps have been there for about 8 months each. That's a lot of wasted training time to let one of them go, right?

Wrong! I guess they will releasing one of the other ladies. I feel absolutely horrible for her. If she's really so bad, why didn't they get another temp sooner to replace her? Oh well. Another one of those "not my issue" situations, right? Still, I don't have the best feeling about it. I completely understand accepting a counter-offer and staying where you're comfortable. But the thing is, this lady does not seem comfortable. She seems miserable!!! I have to say, I was looking forward to next week and not having the angry tension in the air. Oh well! =) Again, not really my issue. I'm there, I'm learning, I'm enjoying, and I'm going to be getting a paycheck! Now, THAT is my issue. =)

Anyway, with that and all of the adventures of the past few days (shoe shopping, missing my comfy shoes, etc!), I really feel like I've been at the carnival all day. I'm tired, I'm dizzy, and I wanna go home.

I Need Shoes!

I know, I know... You're thinking, "she really should be saying she WANTS shoes." Which, ok, that's true, also. But I do actually NEED a pair of brown shoes!

I actually got a job last week! Started work on Thursday, and worked for two whole days... I'll get my first paycheck this coming Friday, and it will only be for two days of work. But it's more than I've made in months, so this is exciting! And right now, I'm employed through a temp agency. So I'll get paid weekly until they hire me on as an actual employee. The job isn't bad at all. The wages are great for this area, but suck according to Chicago standards. No exaggeration... But, I'm lucky to have gotten this job! Anyway, the one thing that is really weird about the place (so far!) is the dress code. My shoes have to be completely closed in. No open toes, no sling-backs, and DEFINITELY no sandals. Oh my goodness. Of course I wore sandals (strappy, high-heeled wedges) on my first day. So, I have one pair of black shoes that I can wear with pants. And I only have 2 pair of pants that will be ok with black shoes. So this week is going to be interesting! I guess I'll just have to rotate the pants every other day and hope no one figures it out. =)

So, you see, I actually do NEED shoes. When I was going through my various stages of moving this past year, I got rid of a few pairs of shoes. I've never been an Imelda Marcos. Believe me, I could've been. But I like a lot of different things, and shoes were never in the top 3 on my list. When it came down to moving and needing to dramatically decrease the number of my possessions, some of the shoes that were in fine shape were passed along. And now I realize I could have used at least one of those pairs of shoes! Oh well.

On another note... why do we, as humans, tend to take for granted the things we have in our lives? Why do we fail to acknowledge and appreciate those things until they are gone? (ha! I just realized it's gonna sound as though I'm still talking about my shoes...)